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Until I entered high school two months ago, I didn't know...
The dampness of my uniform's hem, soaked by someone else's umbrella...
The smell of naphthalene, clinging to someone's suit...
The warm body pushed up against my back...
The chill breeze of the air conditioner against my face...
Shinjuku... Shinjuku station... Thank you for riding with us.
When I was little the sky was closer... So much closer.
That's why I like the rain, as with it comes the smell of the sky.
And often, on rainy mornings, instead of transferring to the subway,
I exit out the station gates.
June
Chocolate, and... beer?
But, I think I've seen her somewhere...
Here.
Thank you.
U-Um... Have we met before?
N-No.
I'm sorry, my mistake.
It's okay.
Maybe it's fitting...
Narukami no sukoshi toyomite
A faint clap of thunder
Sashi kumori
Clouded skies
Ame mo furanu ka?
Perhaps rain comes
Kimi wo todomemu
If so, will you stay here with me?
The Garden of Words
This morning, the JMA has declared the start of the rainy season in Kyushu,
5 days earlier than average.
Nagasaki, Saga, Kumamoto, and Kagoshima prefectures
expect strong rains over a wide area.
I'm home.
Welcome home.
I bought croquettes.
Great. Dinner will be ready soon.
Thank you.
Where's Ma?
Ran out.
Lucky us, we get all the croquettes to ourselves.
She left a letter saying not to go looking for her.
But maybe...
Leave her be.
I'm sure she'll be back after fighting with her boyfriend.
I've picked out a place. I'll be leaving next month.
Living alone?
With my girlfriend.
Don't think that's why mom ran out?
You told her yesterday, right?
I wish she could just let her children go, you know?
She's the one who's making the rounds dating younger men, damn it.
Oh, yeah? Well then I'm gonna go live with my boyfriend!
She's got those youthful looks, after all.
That's 'cause she's never worked hard her entire life.
You're the one who's been piling on the years.
All done.
You do the dishes. I've aged enough.
Won't you be glad to have more space?
'suppose so.
Help me move, 'kay?
Sure.
Hey, have you heard of this?
What is this, a haiku?
It's a tanka.
As if.
Ask Ma when she gets back.
On sunny mornings, I transfer to the subway and head here, like I'm supposed to.
But I think to myself "This is not what I should be doing now."
Rain...
Hello.
Hey...
No school today?
And your office... Is it closed today?
I'm skipping work again...
And drinking beer in the park in the morning.
Drinking beer alone isn't good for your health.
You need to eat something with it.
You know a lot for a high school kid.
It's not me. My mom's the drinker.
I've got snack food.
Want some?
You just thought to yourself "This woman's a freak," didn't you?
No, I...
It's okay. We're human, after all. We've all got our little quirks.
Maybe...
Definitely.
Okay, it's about time for me to go.
Heading to school now?
I've decided to only skip school on rainy mornings.
Then, maybe we'll see each other again.
Perhaps, when it's raining.
It was the first day of Kanto's rainy season.
Entrance Exam
About Tuition
A shoemaker?
I know it seems out of touch,
but I enjoy creating designs and making shoes.
Of course, I'm still terrible at it.
Of course...
But despite it all, I want to make it my career... if I can.
I've never told anyone this before.
Do you have any idea how late you are?
You know why I've called you here, right?
Hey...
Evenings, before I went to sleep...
Mornings, in the moment I woke up...
I realized I was praying for rain.
I realized that on sunny days, I was in a terrible, childish place.
With nothing but impatience.
She exists in a world of working adults, so very far away from me...
To me she represents nothing less than the very secrets of the world.
Honestly, there are only two things I know for sure.
One: She must think of me and my 15years as just some mere kid.
And two: Making shoes is the only thing that will lead me out of this place.
Please stay behind the yellow line for your safety.
Please be careful of the closing doors.
Good morning.
I thought you might not come today.
It's a miracle you haven't been fired yet.
Wow! Is that a shoe design?
Hey!
I can't see?
It's not something worth showing.
Really?
Yes, really.
Come on, sit down over there.
I'm going to eat breakfast. Would you like to join me?
Okay, but I've brought my own.
You made it yourself?
What? I cook sometimes, you know.
Oh?
Then let's make a trade.
Wait, I'm not really that good a...
...cook, you know.
It's your own fault.
That's a side of you I didn't expect.
What?
Sorry. But it's tasty in its own way.
It's got... bite.
Don't patronize me.
Can I have another?
Hurry up!
Wait, bro!
Takao, be careful.
Happy birthday, Mom!
Thank you.
What could the three of you have gotten me?
Hey... Do you think it's too late for me?
And you know what? I could actually taste the food.
So your taste disorder has improved?
I wouldn't go that far.
But just a little while ago, all I could taste was alcohol and chocolate.
I think you deciding to just quit was really for the best.
Maybe so.
You speak to me so gently, like you're touching something fragile.
But back then, when I found it hard even to breathe,
you didn't believe me. You only listened to the voices around you.
Then we'll start the paperwork for you leaving after the holiday.
I'll notify the higher-ups.
Okay. Sorry to cause you all this trouble even after we split up.
I'm glad, really...
About that old woman you met.
You know, the one you keep talking about who brings her lunch box to the park.
It seems like you've really struck a chord.
Yeah, get some rest.
Ever since then...
...I've been nothing but lies.
Rain...
It's raining again today in Kanto.
Here at Shinjuku Station's south exit, the commuters all have umbrellas in their hands.
July
Here, this is for you.
For me?
I've always ended up eating your food, see...
And you said you wanted it, right?
This book isn't cheap...
Thank you... very much.
It's my pleasure.
Um...
I'm actually making a pair of shoes right now.
Wow... A pair for yourself?
I haven't decided whose shoes yet... They're women's shoes.
But, I haven't been able to get them right, and...
You know... Before I knew it,
I wasn't able to walk properly anymore.
Are you talking about your job?
Yeah... About a lot of things.
I don't know anything about her.
Her job, her age... What worries she carries...
Even her name...
And yet I can't help but be charmed by her.
The rainy season is officially over 10 days later than normal in the Kanto region.
The current temperature in the city is 26 degrees.
Like someone just flicked a switch, the sunny days came one after another.
Oh sure, now I think to myself "I'm glad that he's not skipping class anymore"...
But in reality...
...I wish the rainy season had never ended.
This park sure is big.
I can't believe we're in Shinjuku.
Oh, pardon us.
Go ahead.
This is the Japanese gardens, right?
Where should we go next?
Isn't there a greenhouse? Let's check it out.
It's like a totally different place on sunny days.
Thanks for the help.
Hey, why don't you eat dinner with us, Takao?
Sorry, but I've got my part-time job today.
This late?
And I don't want to impose.
The opposite! I'm going to be living with him from now on, so just this once...
I can hear you.
Well then, see you later.
He's a cute kid.
Did you notice his shoes?
They're handmade.
What? Seriously?
Just some ugly moccasins, though.
He's got a bright future, doesn't he?
I wonder if he'd make shoes for me?
Who knows? Teenagers' interests change on a whim...
My brother moved out, and the rainless days continued.
I had no excuse to head to that place.
August
And then, it was summer vacation.
I worked part-time almost every day over the summer.
Hmm, maybe chicken with cashew nuts?
Looks good to me.
We'll order it.
Thank you very much.
I wanted to earn what I could for tuition to a vocational school.
Tools and leather cost money, too.
Sure, I missed her, but...
I think it's clinging to those feelings that is keeping me a little kid.
That's why I've decided to create shoes that'll make her want to get up and walk.
What~ will the weather~ be tomorrow~?
I'm not a bit smarter at the age of 27 than I was at the age of 15.
I've always been here, stuck in the same place.
September
It's just like Tsukishima...
to have got that confused for a week!
English class is no big deal.
That's cause Kiso's a pushover.
Akizuki!
Hey, long time no see. Looks like you guys got a tan.
Yeah, we went to the beach a bunch.
You're still as pale as ever.
What'd you do over summer break?
Worked the whole time.
The whole time?
That's a lonely way to spend your high school days.
School, part-time job, housework. School, part-time job, housework.
I skip school sometimes!
Now that you mention it, you are late a lot, Akizuki.
Yup, this guy never shows up for 1st period when it rains.
I've got a condition where I can't ride the subway on rainy mornings.
Whatever, weirdo.
Teacher's Office
Miss Yukino?
Miss Yukino!
Sato...
Miss Yukino...
Sato, save it for later.
Miss Yukino!
Same goes for the rest of you.
I'm sorry, everyone.
I'll be here until after 5th period.
After that, I'd be happy to.
Yuki came to school?
You didn't hear about Yuki quittin'?
No. I didn't even know who she is.
You have old man Takehara for lit, right?
Yuki was always having trouble with the 3rd year girls.
Yeah, but Miss Yukino didn't do anything wrong.
Someone's boyfriend fell for Miss Yukino,
and as payback everyone in the class treated Miss Yukino terribly.
They spread so many rumors even her parents heard about them.
It went so far she couldn't come to school any more.
Yuki's just too kind. She should have brought it right to the police.
We told Mr. Ito again and again!
But he didn't want to make trouble for the school in public.
Hey, what's the matter?
Those upperclassmen...
Do you know their names?
Miss Yukino!
He totally sucks at it.
You're so cruel.
But man, you sure go through 'em.
What do you want, frosh?
Are you the 3rd year, Aizawa?
An admirer?
Who the hell are you?
It seems like Miss Yukino is quitting.
Huh?
Like I care about what happens to that slutty hag.
Who does this guy think he is?
Huh? What's this?
What's your deal?
Let's go tell a teacher...
Never seen this kid before.
Who are you? Fallen for that old hag?
What a creep! Does he even know how old she is?
Poor guy, she must have tricked him.
She might go for him now, though.
Since she ain't a teacher no more.
Damn straight.
You should thank us.
I'm waiting for the rain.
Narukami no sukoshi toyomite
A faint clap of thunder
Furazu to mo
Even if rain comes not
Warewa tomaramu
I will stay here
Imoshi todomeba
Together with you
Yes, that's the correct answer.
That's the right response to the tanka I told you when we first met.
If it rains, I wonder if you will be staying here?
In response to that verse, I answer...
Even if it doesn't rain, I will be here.
It was in the classic Japanese literature textbook.
Miss Yukino...
I'm sorry...
I thought you would realize I was a classic literature teacher.
I mean, everyone at school knows about me.
But you're always off in your own little world, aren't you?
Hey, what happened to your face?
I was acting like you and drank too much beer.
Then I tripped and fell on the Yamanote line platform.
Oh, my!
Just kidding. I got in a fight, that's all.
Look... It looks like we just swam across the river.
I think this might...
... this might be...
... the happiest...
... time of my life.
Yukino...
Yes?
I think I've fallen in love with you.
Not Yukino... Miss Yukino, remember?
I'm going to be moving next week.
Back to my hometown in Shikoku.
I made the decision a while back.
I was practicing how to walk on my own, there in that place.
Even if I'm barefoot...
So then...
So I want to thank you for everything, Akizuki.
Um, thank you for lending me these clothes.
I'll get changed now.
But yours aren't...
Excuse me... I'm going home.
Thank you for your hospitality.
I made this lunch for myself, but I made too much.
So if you'd like...
I haven't decided whose shoes yet...
They're women's shoes.
I was acting like you and drank too much beer
Then I tripped and fell on the Yamanote line platform.
Narukami no sukoshi toyomite
A faint clap of thunder
Furazu to mo
Even if rain comes not
Warewa tomaramu
I will stay here
Imoshi todomeba
Together with you
Um...
Yukino, please forget what I said earlier.
I was wrong... I hate you after all.
Ever since we first met, you struck me...
...like a person I should avoid.
Drinking beer in the morning, spouting off some random tanka at me...
You listen all day to other people talking,
yet never say a peep about yourself...
You knew I was a student, didn't you?
That's just unfair!
If I'd known you were a teacher, I would have never told you about the shoes.
After all, you think I'll never amount to anything!
So why didn't you say anything to me?
You thought maybe you'd humor the little kid's fantasies for a while?
Tell me I'll never live up to my expectations!
Tell me I'll never measure up to my dreams!
You knew from the very beginning!
So tell me, god damn it!
Tell me I'm in your way!
Tell me that little kids should run along to school!
Tell me that you hate me!
You...
It's because you act like that!
You never say what's important!
You pretend it's none of your business!
You've been living your whole life, alone!!
Every morning!
Every morning I put on my suit to go to school...
But I was... scared...
I just couldn't go...
In that place...
You...
You... saved me!
Kotoba ni dekizu kogoeta mama de hitomae de wa yasashiku ikite ita
Frozen, unable to put my feelings into words, just living quietly in front of people
Shiwayose de konna fuu ni zatsu ni ame no yoru ni kimi wo dakishimeteta
In order to move that burden away, I embraced you roughly on that rainy night
Dourowaki no bira to kowareta jouyatou machikado de wa sou dare mo ga isoideta
Road-side buildings and the broken night-lamps, at street everyone was in a hurry
Kimi ja nai warui no wa jibun no hageshisa wo kakusenai boku no hou sa
You are not the one who is at fault, it is me who unable to hide my own intensity
Lady kimi wa ame ni kemuru suita eki wo sukoshi hashitta
Lady you were shrouded by the rain and ran through the empty station for a bit
Doshaburi demo kamawanai to zubunure demo kamawanai to
Saying that, but it doesn't matter if I'm completely drenched
Shibuki ageru kimi ga kieteku
You make splashes in the water and disappear
Rojiura de wa asa ga hayai kara ima no uchi ni kimi wo tsukamae
The mornings come early in the back-alleys, so I have to catch you now
Ikanai de ikanai de sou iu yo
Saying to you ‘don’t go, don’t go’
Summer ended, and it came time to switch to our winter uniforms...
I got terrible marks on my final exams...
I wasted who knows how many pieces of expensive leather...
I worked part-time over winter break as well...
And every time I added a layer to my clothing,
I wondered to myself... how was she doing?
Betsubetsu ni kurasu nakidashisou na sora wo
Living separately, I no longer have the strength
nigirishimeru tsuyosa wa ima wa mou nai
to grasp the sky that is on the verge of tears
Kawarazu iru kokoro no sumi dake de kizutsuku you na kimi nara mou iranai
I don’t need you if you are remain in my heart, unchanging and just hurting me
Lady kimi wa ame ni nurete boku no me wo sukoshi mite ita
Lady you were drenched in the rain while looked at my eyes just a little bit
Doshaburi demo kamawanai to zubunure demo kamawanai to
Saying that, but it doesn't matter if I'm completely drenched
Kuchibue fuku boku ga tsuiteku
I whistle and follow you
Zuibun kimi wo shirisugita no ni hajimete arasotta yoru no you ni
Eventhough I’ve gotten to know you so much now like our first quarreled night
Ikanai de ikanai de sou iu yo
Saying to you ‘don’t go, don’t go’
Kata ga kawaita shatsu kaisatsu wo deru koro
When I pass through the ticket gate, the shirt on my shoulders has dried
Kimi no machi ja mou ame wa koburi ni naru
In your town, the rain has slowed down to a drizzle already
Kyou dake ga ashita ni tsudzuiteru
Only today will continue into tomorrow
Konna fuu ni kimi to wa owarenai
Feeling in this way, I can't end it with you
Lady kimi wa ima mo kou shite
Lady now you know you don’t have
chiisame no kasa mo sasazu ni
even a small umbrella with you
Doshaburi demo kamawanai to zubunure demo kamawanai to
Saying that, but it doesn't matter if I'm completely drenched
Shibuki ageru kimi ga kieteku
You make splashes in the water and disappear
Rojiura de wa asa ga hayai kara ima no uchi ni kimi wo tsukamae
The mornings come early in the back-alleys, so I have to catch you now
Ikanai de ikanai de sou iu yo
Saying to you ‘don’t go, don’t go’
Doshaburi demo kamawanai to zubunure demo kamawanai to
Saying that, but it doesn't matter if I'm completely drenched
Kuchibue fuku boku ga tsuiteku
I whistle and follow you
Zuibun kimi wo shirisugita no ni hajimete arasotta yoru no you ni
Eventhough I’ve gotten to know you so much now like our first quarreled night
Ikanai de ikanai de sou iu yo
Saying to you ‘don’t go, don’t go’
This letter has gotten quite long without me even realizing it.
Thanks so much for reading it all...
I hope you are doing well, Akizuki. I wish the warm days of Spring come soon.
- Yukari Yukino
I was practicing how to walk, too. I think that now.
One day, when I can walk much farther on my own...
... I will go see her.